Aneurysms of the Overdosed Mind

Ramblings of a Mad Elf

January 27, 2015

Rebirth of sorts?

So about a year or so ago I set out to actually start a blog of my own. I’m still not entirely sure what it will turn out to be, but since I’m redoing everything, I might as well revamp the old “blog.”

Okay, so I only have what, three entries so far? Still, writing is something that is like therapy for me. I’ll write about anything really. Whatever’s on my mind, if I can put it into words in my own way, I’ll definitely give it a go. So, for the sake of “renewal,” here’s a little snippet about little old me…

My name is Letoya. I’m a mom first, a creative being second, and an all around loyal puppy when it comes to friends and family last. My likes include 3D art composition, drawing anime and manga, writing short stories and poetry. I enjoy listening to music, lately LOTS of K-Pop (It’s catchy and I loved it way before Gangnam Style. Do somethin’!) and stuff from my childhood. God I miss the 80’s and 90’s when music was music and not just regurgitated crap. I’m also an avid/rabid wrestling and ice hockey fan. I played ice hockey for five years and went to wrestling school after that, only to get hurt. I could take the entire WWE Divas division now. They’re not nearly as good as they say they are… okay… Paige is… and Natalya… and I’ll even throw AJ a bone, but that’s it. Okay, and damn it, she’s not quite a Diva yet, but props to Charlotte Flair. My god that girl is amazing!

I bet you’re wondering about the name too. It’s simple… kind of. I played a wrestling game where my character, my “blog mascot” over there, Angelica Grim, used a finishing move called The Aneurysm. Basically, she dropped peeps on their heads before taking them out with a splash from the top rope before then ending the match with a pinfall. (Don’t know the sport, look it up!) Anyway, I’ve always thought of Angelica as my alter ego… my muse if you will. That’s where the first part comes from. The second is a bit more… complicated. I do A LOT of thinking. My brain does not shut off. I suffer from insomnia because of it. That and lately my favorite song is Overdose by EXO(-K or -M… I don’t care. I’m -L. We are one! Look up the fandom. Ha!) and I figured “Hey, I like it. It’s my blog. It’s different. Suck it.” So there’s that.

Did I forget to mention I ramble a lot? I do. Sorry ’bout that a head of time, but that’s what blogs are for right? Better to end this little re-introduction though here before I keep going and end up in that weird place on YouTube that no one likes admitting they’ve been to. Insert giggle here.

That said, forget the past. It’s 2015. It’s a new year. It’s a new blog. I look forward to rambling as much as I possibly can here. I hope you’ll stick around for the ride! 🙂

June 29, 2014

Viva La Soccer Mom!

Okay, first off, let me start by saying I’m far from qualified for going on a political rant of any kind, but when it involves sports, I can’t help but throw in my two cents of wisdom. Sports are a major part of my life and I think of them in such high regard that I can’t help but come to their defense when needed and with this bat spewing off at the mouth, I had to speak up for once. Not only that, but please bare with me as I get all this out since it’s been almost a decade and a half since I have written anything in the style of editorial prose. (Thank you Rebecca for planting the seeds of journalism during my stay in high school. I’ll never forget you and your pearls of wisdom.)

That said, here goes…

This little gem started out as s simple comment on my facebook wall with a share of the recent “views” of some psycho claiming that

June 5, 2014

What It All Comes Down To

Once again I find myself sitting here waiting on my laptop in the pursuit of 3D creative bliss and I’m struck with the ever popular conundrum of what exactly it is I’m suppose to be doing. I could easily render another portrait, attempt to render another scene, but instead, as of late, I find myself only in the mindset to create more content.

Why? Simply put. Necessity.

What it comes down to is making money to take care of my family. I’m what you could call the poster child for the starving artist. I barely sleep, I eat the bare necessities, only making sure the kids get their fill before I do, and whatever money I get from the long hours I spend toiling away in Photoshop, Poser, Daz Studio, and Zbrush, goes directly back into supplies or needs for my boys. It’s a vicious cycle, but it’s one I’m proud of. For years I wanted to do what I love for myself and make a bit of a living from it. I may be off to a very slow start at this point, but I’m doing it. I wish the circumstances surrounding where I am in the process was a bit better, but I’m a least doing what I want with my life.

For so many years I took into consideration all the dreams I had growing up… WWF/E Diva, professional ice hockey player, professional dancer, professional cheerleader, web designer (I’d still like to learn more on that as I do it as a hobby), but everything goes back to art. It always has. During my “I wanna be like Chyna” years, I would sit and design my own ring gear. I took a fantasty league elective in high school where we owned our own NHL teams and NBA teams. I got first place in the team logo design contests for both and even had the top NHL team (Yeah, I was a bit of a puck head in high school. lol) I’d draw for hours just to pass the time, never thinking it would take me any where. Instead of art in college, I took journalism because I also loved writing, but it all came back to my color pencils and drawing pad.

Perhaps I didn’t get just get how much of a creative mind I had until it was virtually taken away from me due to the pressures of real life. I kept writing, learned HTML, and took more of a critical interest in creating… designing. Rather than random doodles, I took to analyzing and planning concepts before execution, but eventually, I went back to creating off the top of my head again. Pixel art to learning the basics of digital painting to mastering intermediate concepts, all self taught, in Photoshop. After that, enter the wonderful world of 3D animation and art. I haven’t quite put my foot in the animation portion of the realm, but I’m getting there.

Content creation is a challenge. It’s a very intense, mind-blowing, yet gratifying challenge. Not only am I’m challenged creatively, but I’m also challenged by the art of others. I’m pushed to see just how much better I can get with what I do and over the past five or six years that I’ve been a part of the community, I can honestly say I still have a ways to go, but I’m proud of my accomplishments. Not everyone can do it. I have ups and downs, but to me, it all comes back to the art anyway. It comes down to did I make something that I’m proud of and to answer the question honestly, I hate everything I do. No. I’m kidding. I’m very proud of my art. It’s not perfect by industry standards yet, but it’s definitely a step in the right direction. Speaking of which, computer finally finished loading. Time to work. Masterpieces to create! 🙂

May 23, 2014

Oh the pains of celebrity lol

So, as I sit here going through my daily routine of pose, render, wait, I decided to check out my K-Pop apps for any news on my favorite groups. (No, I am not a “psycho fan girl” per say, but music helps with my depression and there is non more get up an go lately than Asian pop. Trust me.)

What’s Up?

Welcome to my world. You